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[loficharm]

"Hullo, you've reached Martin Blackwood. Sorry I missed you! Leave me a message, and I'll get back to you straightaway."


[Leave mail, voicemail, texts, etc. for Martin Blackwood here.]

Comments

[swerved]

not trying to be a dick, I promise. just noticed you've been kinda down lately

[loficharm]

[a few minutes later]

I know. That you're not trying to be a dick i mean.

[loficharm]

[typing indicator comes and goes for several more minutes]

i know what you're doing and just... please don't. i'm okay.

[swerved]

yeah, I know what you're doing, too

[swerved]

not a criticism, it's the same thing I always do

[swerved]

so if you need to talk or anything... I get it. and I'm here.

[loficharm]

thank you

[loficharm]

but respectfully i don't think you do get it. i know what i'm doing.

[loficharm]

i'll be fine.

[swerved]

a little while before I got here, I didn't leave my room for six months

[swerved]

I thought it was gonna make things easier. that it would help.

[swerved]

but all it did was mean that I wasn't there when things started going to shit for my family

[swerved]

so yeah, trust me, I kinda DO get it. self-isolating and saying you're okay? classic me move.

[loficharm]

okay, well. i'm sorry. but it's just complicated, all right? i'm not sitting here feeling sorry for myself, it's just something i have to do

[swerved]

I'm sure you think you do, but... you probably don't. you shouldn't have to go it entirely alone, anyway.

[swerved]

at least let ONE person in. doesn't have to be me, but it can be.

[swerved]

or, hell, at least tell John you don't hate him.

[loficharm]

i don't HATE JOHN

[swerved]

yeah try telling HIM that

[swerved]

he's been miserable, dude, and I'm pretty sure it's because you've been all weird and distant

[loficharm]

John understands. he may not like it but he knows what i'm doing and why i'm doing it

[loficharm]

he's always sort of surly i'm sure it's not that bad

[loficharm]

i mean did he say anything...?

[swerved]

he didn't have to. this is more than typical John surliness.

[swerved]

even if he knows what you're doing and why... I think it would help BOTH of you to tell him SOMETHING. at least just that you're not icing him out or whatever.