"I want it," Martin breathes, the words falling out of him, his eyes falling shut. John's forehead braces against his, more grounding this time, and Martin makes no move to pull away or kiss him again, instead drinking in the simpler and somehow even more profound intimacy of just existing here like this, pressed to him. "You're all I want, John."
Nothing happens; lightning does not strike him and no rug is pulled from beneath his feet. He said it, he meant it, and John is still here. "I—I'm okay," he says, and again with more certitude: "I'm okay. And I need you to be okay, too. I always wanted that, even when—when things were like they were before, I... I just knew. I knew there was so much here that I couldn't see." He keeps his hands on John's face, gentle but firm, as if to indicate the here he means. "I wanted to be better, to—to find it, and now I—"
Abruptly he runs out of steam, a string cut, though maybe not so literally this time. A laugh tumbles out of him, soft and faintly amazed. "Christ, I've never been so happy," he murmurs, and sinks forward, letting his arms draw back around John to embrace him, nuzzling at his cheek and the greying hair at his temple.
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Nothing happens; lightning does not strike him and no rug is pulled from beneath his feet. He said it, he meant it, and John is still here. "I—I'm okay," he says, and again with more certitude: "I'm okay. And I need you to be okay, too. I always wanted that, even when—when things were like they were before, I... I just knew. I knew there was so much here that I couldn't see." He keeps his hands on John's face, gentle but firm, as if to indicate the here he means. "I wanted to be better, to—to find it, and now I—"
Abruptly he runs out of steam, a string cut, though maybe not so literally this time. A laugh tumbles out of him, soft and faintly amazed. "Christ, I've never been so happy," he murmurs, and sinks forward, letting his arms draw back around John to embrace him, nuzzling at his cheek and the greying hair at his temple.